Self-Healing

In my opinion, life is all about surviving. Especially for those who is in constant battle of depression. Every day is a battle that you must fight just to survive, and it can be very hard at times because the world around you feel like an anchor, it’s holding you down and it can be very cold and dark at times.

I am here to tell you; I am right there with you. There are days where I just want to lay down in a dark room in silence, consumed by reasons that is unknown on why I feel the way I do about everything. It hurts, it is sad, and it does not feel good at all. Even those who close to me had no idea of the battle that I had to go through just to get up and get ready at times.

However, no matter what, I refused to give up. Because love is stronger than anything else in this world. To hear my dad voice or see his face every day is a blessing and I refused to give up and to lose all the delicate moments he has left in his life due to my own selfishness. I had to search and find sources that keep me strong and keep me going. Of course, thinking about my dad helped me get out of bed and keep me going, but what else?

People always fast to say; get a hobby, grow up, get a job, do something you love. I tend to laugh at it because who are they to tell me what I need to do? If I want to play hopscotch at 45 years old, guess what? That is exactly what I am going to do. I almost died in 2009 due to my own selfishness because I cared too much on what people was saying about me.

Took years for me to realize that no one else should matter when it comes to your happiness. If you are not happy with yourself, you won’t be able to find that happiness with anyone else. I survived this far, and I am still on my journey of self-healing by thoroughly loving me and all my imperfections. We are going to make it, and everything is going to be just fine.

I had to do what I needed to do. Granted, quitting your job may took a toll in your financial life but why stick with it if you are miserable? Everyone needs money and sanity; some cannot make that sound decision to choose sanity. But I chose my sanity. Of course, I will need money to survive but I will work for myself and on myself and I will find a way to generate money that way. It is time to launch those ideas, time to file for that LLC and to open that business. Of course, I will have to work a little to generate income to support whatever it is that I am trying to do and to survive on daily basis, but my main goal and focus will be me and what I can do to help my community that is dealing with the same issue.

I am not here to tell you to quit your job today and be hopeful, but I can say, do whatever you need to do just make sure you are happy doing it. This is one of my journeys that will be included in my book, journal, and blog as well; find something that make you happy and even if you are not good at it in the beginning, we will work through that together.

With that being said and shared, I would like for you to join me in this journey.

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